Today, I wanted to say I put in my best to meet my goals academically and personally. Yes, I know it is a Saturday, but that is no excuse to let yourself go. I've never been able to put in 110% at anything. I haven't laughed this much EVER! And I'm actually proud of myself and thankful for my coach here in Des Moines. He helped me write up a schedule of activities that will strengthen my ankles, my back, and my core. He helped me plan some other fun activities I could to with friends that, in a way, give me an additional workout. Finally, he helped me organize time - a written schedule- when I can have free time and when I will do homework or studio hours. I am so thankful for my dance coach... I am finally in control of my life. Heck, he went from dance coach to life coach in like five seconds... even though it only was a ten minute conversation :)
One very big problem: Now that I have time planned to have a social life outside of partying, people think I'm full of B.S. No one here believes in me. None of my peers think that the changes I have made in my life are positive. And their negativity is rubbing off on me. I'm turning into a sarcastic bitch... yes, I said it. That is the one unacceptable negative that has filled the gap that used to be called friendship here on the Des Moines campus. I am now on my own.
I have hours planned for social outings that no longer are happening. (I can't wait to get my butt out of here)...
ONE VERY BIG POSITIVE:
I HAVE TIME TO GIVE 110% TO DANCE AND ART!
and because no one cares about anything I do, I have nothing to loose.
I had three hours of dancing today. My shoes are finally starting to break in. My confidence is even high enough to consider practicing arm styling!
So, today, I decided to be dedicated.... Even if it is a Saturday :)
Never give up.
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